40 Odd Years

Went to the funniest/cutest concert ever. I love Loudon.

Papa Wainwright

Joy Division

RIP Ian Curtis

My Very Long Week

A palm reader came up to me at a bar tonight and told me to revive my diary. I usually do write privately, but have stopped for whatever reason. She also told me to stop writing only about films and music (HAHAHA) and focus on my life.

This has been a very long week for me. I woke up last Tuesday thinking it was Thursday. And when Thursday finally came, I was so ecstatic for the smell of Friday. So I will recap the past few days.

Thursday

After work, I went home and changed into a dress. The weather was warm and beautiful. I love how my block catches the edge of sunset every night. I went out for dinner at Queens Comfort with Belgie. They have a huge white screen towards the end of the restaurant where they project films. Jim Jarmusch's "Dead Man" was screening in silence amongst chatter. I got there early and texted Belgie "Hurry up, B52's Rock Lobster is playing!" She arrived with a "You have no idea how much I've been looking forward to this." A nice relaxing dinner was long overdue for the both of us.

After dinner we went back to my place to pick up my computer and sleeping clothes since I was gonna sleep over. We walked to Cafe Bar for boardgames and desserts. I ordered a Mexican Hot Chocolate and she got Hot Chocolate Chai. She taught me how to play Othello. We had a very epic battle in which she gracefully won. We then walked to her place and spent the rest of the night hermitting and trading music.

Friday

I left Belgie's in the morning and walked home. Got ready for work and made breakfast. Ate with my roommates before I left. Work came and went pretty fast. Around 8 I left for Union Square to meet Gonzo. I haven't seen him in over a month since we've both been busy. We went to Republic and both ordered the same thing. We then walked to Alphabet City to meet some friends for drinks at Elsa's. Started to get really tired after a few hours and kept zoning in and out. Ended up leaving them early and took the train home. Got back around 1am and crashed.

Saturday

Woke up to Jenny's phone call in the morning. Talked to her for a little bit then proceeded to the kitchen for brunch. Made myself a scrumptious salad. Had to run to the printers for a freelance job so took off around 2. Rae was a few blocks away at Paper Presentation buying paper for someone's wedding invitations. We met up and walked uptown. Stopped by Sephora to pick up my birthday present. She accompanied me to Trader Joe's since I had to pick up some groceries. We also went to a flea market and shopped for a while. We departed and I went back towards Queens. Went to a thrift shop and found a cute khaki jacket. While I was outside I met a woman named Sheila who owns Matilda's Vintage Curiosity Shoppe. I went into the store and chatted with her for a bit. We talked about Woody Allen and Alfred Hitchcock.

Sunday

This morning I woke up at 9 to the sound of church chimes. Decided to cut my hair. Took a shower and got ready for the day. I had to be at Christopher Street Pier to take pictures of a proposal at 3pm. The plan was to have Tanya (my dear musician friend) to act as a busker and sing a few of the couple's favorite songs. When they take their walk to the pier and see Tanya, the proposal will take place. It did and the lady said yes. I took many pictures. It was wonderful. There was an after party at a bar close by with all their friends waiting. I went and had a great time. That was when the palm reader approached me and Rae for some fun reading. I got really tired after a while so we left. I walked to Union Square to take the R train. Chatted with my mom tonight. Jenny called 30 seconds after I hung up with my mom. And now I'm here writing.

Tomorrow is Monday. According to Ms.Simone, this week will go by fast. Let's hope so.

Lazy Night Playlist

Nilsson

1. Nick Drake- Northern Sky

2. Harry Nilsson- Everybody's Talkin'

3. Todd Rundgren- I Saw the Light

4. Sufjan Stevens- Casimir Pulaski Day

5. Pete Yorn- Just Another

6. Leonard Cohen- So Long Marianne

7. Beck- Lost Cause

8. Sam Amidon- Saro

9. The Smiths- I Know It's Over

10. John Lennon- Watching the Wheels

China Chow

Step aside Dorian Gray. China, age 38, via Terry R.

Have You Forgotten

Last night I woke up at 5:30am with Red House Painters' Have You Forgotten playing in my head. How fortunate was I to have my laptop away at an arm's distance. I had fallen asleep to Great Lake Swimmers' Ongiara album on repeat earlier and it was still playing. I never used to need music to fall asleep. Lately I find myself lying down with thoughts tumbling inside my brain. It's hard to relax when the worries in life seem endless.

Every time I decide to cut someone out of my life, I spend a lot of time thinking about them as much as I can. Somehow I believe that if I do it all now, I won't have to do it later on. And hopefully these memories will disintegrate and turn into nothing. Then the person will be completely gone and I can't be hurt again.

I decided to try reading Everything is Illuminated again. The first two times were difficult. There were too many characters to remember and it was hard to picture three different timelines in my head. But I'm doing much better now. I'm taking my time understanding. It's ironic for me to pick it up at this time because that book is all about memories. It makes me sad. It makes me angry. I laugh a lot and mentally mark down my favorite lines. Then I get sad again when I think of the grandfather. It reminds me of my own grandfather and how he was the first person I knew who died. I think so much about death, which is funny because I don't really think anything about it, therefore I think about a whole lot of nothing.

I need to climb myself out of the hole I'm digging.

Holland, 1945

Omg. As much as I like going to work, all I want to do today is stay home and jump on my bed while listening to Neutral Milk Hotel.

Aeroplane Over the Sea, 1998

Diary of a Madman

We rushed to Rush. It was phenomenal.

Geoffrey Rush

Not so Fresh Start

All of January has been shitting on me. Went to bed at 7am last night, slept 3 hours. Ran around the entire day, ate breakfast/lunch/dinner at 6pm. Breaded tilapia with vegetables, black beans over rice, and a cafe latte. Missing a great party right now as I am physically and mentally incapable to do anything besides lying in bed and listening to Serafina Steer.