crippled fly

A couple of weeks ago, I was browsing through films and caught Yumeji in the Japan section. So of course, being a Wong Kar-Wai fan, I immediately connected it to the infamous song composed by Shigeru Umebayashi. Actually I've always wondered who Yumeji was, being that the score is titled Yumeji's Theme. The movie is the last of a trilogy directed by Seijun Suzuki, with the previous films being Zigeunerweisen and Kageroza. I saw the first one so far. It's weird but pretty interesting. So if you're into foreign independent films, make a date with Suzuki.

It's good to know where Yumeji's Theme is from now, especially since I owe so much credit to this song. It's mellifluous, smooth and beautiful. And sometimes when I'm zoning out, I start seeing things in purple and red, with images bouncing off each other and fooling my vision. I need a big white sheet and a projector in my room...

I recently attended a big dinner and found myself sitting between a plane pilot and a graduate student from Yale Law. In cases like this, I can only sit there and imagine the depths of knowledge embedded in their brains. Actually I always find myself in these situations, imagining away. With the 4 corners of a kindergarten classroom (house, blocks, painting and puzzle section) who knows which corner you'll choose and how much it would affect your entire life.

I remember watching this girl in my kindergarten class paint once. She was using her fingers and palms to paint an elephant, which was really just a green glob on cheap paper. I remember getting frustrated and thinking to myself how it's ALL WRONG. ELEPHANTS AREN'T GREEN! .. But she looked so happy dipping her fingers into the green container that I felt bad telling her. And now I'm glad I never told her what I thought. Because it's like "why not?" Why can't animals be however you see them? Your eyeballs belong to only you and nobody should take away your own vision. And nobody deserves the right to take away anybody's happiness also! Being happy is the strength of mind that no one should ever cheat or try to steal. The sort of person that look for and possess happiness will be forever searching. Possession of tangible things in the world will always fade and disintegrate. The only thing you will ever have control of in your life is your own mind and vision. I hope you'll seek it within your soul.